Showers of Blessing.

In the mood for blogging. (:
Maybe it's the rain getting to me.
I love rainy days.
How they make you so extremely upset when you're cold and lonely,
But also how they make you feel so blessed just wearing your boyfriend's jacket.
I feel guilty feeling happy around all my troubled and unhappy friends.
But I deserve it I guess,
After all the shit I've been put through.

Suddenly I feel my life is falling into place,
Like how it is supposed to.
I dont know what will happen to me it this has to be taken away.
I dont wanna imagine it at all.
Although I said,
If it fucks up, it fucks up.
and its not like i havent been through it before.
But, a part of me is so afraid for it to happen.
Its been a long time since I felt this happy and secured.

The saying 'All good things have to come to an end.' just scares me.